Well Well Well

It seems as though when i feel like things are looking up (well not like oh i have all kinds of things happening haha its more on the lines of i finally over my regret period of buying the ps4 haha) something always happens and right now the something that has happened is my tv decided it wanted to die on me which oh thank you so much you piece of shit i appreciate it so much and also our refrigerator decided to do the same thing today and now there is 2 expensive items that need to be replaced well one of them is important the other is just something that we want to not live our lifes to the fullest haha. and yes i know i should go and do more things then sit in front of the damn tv playing games and shit but i just enjoy doing that especially after getting off of work but well it seems that wont be happening for a bit unless i decided to go buy a new tv. but man thats a ton of money and i am not made of money hell i have already spent a good amount of my check on the ps4 and buying food haha and then next the refrigerator which god knows how much that will cost.
 
    I mean i might be able to get the tv fixed but for how much? is it about the same as a new tv? i might as well buy a new tv i mean i found a pretty good one for 350ish? and its better then mine its a smart tv its has 120hz and its about the same size its actually 2 inches smaller but truthfully i dont really care anymore i mean my room is small i probably wont even notice it. But yeah i dont know if i will be able to get it this month which sucks cause like i said i just got paid literally a few days ago so i  would have to wait a entire month and hopefully i dont get fucked on that check like the last 2 did.

    Ok enough about the boohoos of my broken tv on to other things. I have been listening to the band Dir en Grey alot lately again and man i remember i hated there newer albums but now i am absolutely in love with them i mean sometimes its like why is this lagging about but other then that they are pretty interesting songs.

    Thats all for now i am gonna try to do something right now maybe go to sleep haha

 - Jon Bohn

Im having big purchase regrets

This is a problem i have all the time i don't know why maybe there is some type of mental disease i have but every time i make a purchase over $100 dollars i always end up having regrets on it even though i have saved money for it and wanted to get it. The item i am regretting right now is the purchase of the ps4/destiny bundle. Now truthfully i wasn't gonna buy the destiny game and i really only wanted the PlayStation but i said fuck it i might as well get this for one: all my friends are gonna have the game and 2 i finally get a ps4 haha plus it was all lumped in one price so i kind of wouldnt notice.
  But as always right after i bought it and put it together and start playing i start going did i make a bad decision? i mean i am not hurting for money i have a decent paying job when i work so i do have a income but i dont know i just always hate myself after it. Maybe there is a phobia or something about this and i have it i mean i have some weird phobias like if i am not buying a big thing like a tv or game system i cant buy only one thing its so weird i will go to the store and be like i need some toothpaste and as i go to the counter i am like i cant just buy this one thing so then i start frantically thinking is there something else i need? and most of the time i end up grabbing like a candy bar so i have 2 items. When i talk about it i realize it sounds dumb but for some reason i cant do it like i tried i went to the line got to the check out counter and at the last second i would grab something hell one time i bought whiskey cause i only had one thing haha........ actually i still have that whiskey its in the freezer right now. Its just so strange how i am when it comes to spending money on myself and if anyone knows me i have a ton of shit like my walls are full of DVDs, BluRay's, and games but yet every time i either hate myself or i cant just buy the one thing haha there has been so many times where i go for one DVD and left with 2-5 of them haha.
  Oh yeah so right now i am regretting the damn ps4 which i know in about a month i will be like i am so glad i bought this but I'm sure for now i will hate myself so much like seriously i am feeling super depressed right now cause of this that i barely played the damn thing it was just on or paused cause i just hate myself, and at the same time i am thinking about buying the elgato hd 60 capture card so i can record some ps4 and Xbox one gameplays for my lets play channel and i have been fighting myself for the last week saying i should get it, i shouldn't get it haha and it sucks. i wish i could be like fuck it and confidant in my choices in life but i really suck at life, i always second guess almost everything. So yeah that is my problem in life right now haha what a terrible problem but i thought i would share it to my blog that no one reads haha

- Jon Bohn